Wisdom from the throne

Miss me?

Took a couple days to just relax and reset.

Just kidding, I actually just got done being brutally sick.

Writhing and moaning in pain, body aches, fever, and a couple other less pleasant symptoms that I'll spare you the description of.

But you know what was awesome?

Two major things that reminded me of the growth I've gone through.

One is that prior to recent years, that kind of illness would have sent me straight into all types of escapism as a coping mechanism. If not porn, then probably still things like weed, YouTube, scrolling socials, binging Netflix and movies.

And hey, fair enough when you're sick, right?

Well, not for me.

Not anymore.

I truly don't care what other people choose to do, but for me, I've worked on removing as much escapism as I possibly can from my life, preferring to face whatever discomfort I'm going through head-on instead of numbing it. Which has consistently, and continues to, lead me into ever-greater levels of personal growth that otherwise wouldn't be possible.

So I try not to let unpleasant circumstances push me back into escapism either, because those habits are sticky and once the circumstance ends, the habit you reactivated doesn't necessarily.

And I didn't let that happen.

I was going through hell, but just endured it with... well, as much grace as possible when you're writhing in pain and running back and forth from the bathroom.

Read some books. Did some journaling. Just sat in silence.

Two is having a beautiful, feminine woman by my side who was caring for me throughout a big part of that illness. What a blessing. One that an earlier version of me wasn't capable of attracting or maintaining, but current me does so naturally.

She's so full of love that she naturally feels called to care for me.

Not just in this way, but many others.

And these aren't really my words, they're hers.

That's pretty fookin' special, I think.

And a natural result of having quit porn and worked on my masculine embodiment over these past years.

Because the truth is, a woman can't drop into the deeper levels of her own femininity unless she feels extremely safe, cared for, provided for, and like she can trust the leadership of the masculine presence in her life. And that comes down to a lot more than just providing financially. It's about how her man is showing up, day to day. The decisions he makes. The steadiness in his emotions. Speaking and guiding with loving leadership...

Basically, she needs to feel a strong masculine polarity to drop into her deepest feminine.

Problem is, porn fundamentally erodes masculine energy.

I can't pretend I know all the answers as to why that happens. Maybe it's because it's wasting your seed (which the Bible warns against...) and that seed contains some mystical powers. Maybe it's because watching other men "conquest" and get what you want does something damaging to our self-image. Maybe it's simply because it's not possible to show up as the best, most aligned, most grounded and clear-headed version of you when your brain has been neurochemically hamstrung by what is essentially an ultra-powerful digital drug...

But regardless of the specifics, the same fundamental truth applies:

It's poisonous to our masculinity.

And for any man who cares deeply about his relationship, his business, and his growth in general... it really just has to go.

And if you need help, I've spent the last nearly 5 years of my life becoming a world-class expert in helping men break decades-long porn addictions in just 2-3 months... so they can move on and basically forget they ever lived that way.

You could be next.